House Hunting

We've looked at 6 houses now and only 1 have we really liked. Of course, it has a pending contract now, but that's ok. Just means it wasn't meant to be, right?! So last night we looked at 3, and all were big NO'S!!! BUT our realtor informed us of one that's more than likely come back on the market. It's a repo and apparently the bank and the buyer had a falling out, darn for them good for us!! The best thing about this house, it's has a POOL!! How cool is that?!?! Here I haven't even looked at the house and I love it already,haha!!! The realtor is going to find out what's going on with it and let us know today hopefully. I'm trying to not get my hopes up, but gosh it's hard. My philosophy on the whole house buying is whatever happens happens. We're in no rush & we're enjoying being DEBT free, do you know how wonderful that is?!?!?


Shawnn's playing in a 2 day golf tournament this weekend so my parents are going to keep Brayden for me so I can clean, organize, get kid sale stuff ready, and hopefully enjoy some alone time. I love my sugar booger & my husband but, I love some alone time too even if it's spent cleaning & organizing my house!!!

The Big 2 7

I can't believe my birthday is here already, how the time flies. It doesn't bother me to get older, well as of now it doesn't bother me. I've always heard your 30's are your prime, so I'm looking forward to that. Someone told me your 20's are for being young & dumb, needless to say that made me feel alot better....lol. Sunday is my birthday so Saturday night Renee is throwing me a fiesta. I'm so excited she got a margarita machine and a pinata and we're having lots of mexican food!! Nothing better than mexican food, margaritas and great friends. Hopefully, we'll take lots of pics, we always have good intentions of taking pics but we never do.

Man A Mighty I'm Feeling Worn Out......

I've been so tired, well really, sleepy this week. I go to sleep and don't wake up till the alarm goes off the next morning but I'm still so sleepy. My plan for tonight is to get in bed at a decent hour,like 9!

I got Brayden's birthday stuff ordered and it should be here by Monday, so I can get all the invitations out in plenty of time. I've got everything ordered as far as food and have most of my 'plan' made out for that day.

We've got a pretty easy busy (is that possible?!!) weekend planned. Seems like we've had something going on every weekend for a while so it'll be nice to do things but at our on pace this weekend. I was talking to my mom about her & Brayden's schedule for the summer, and it's already planned out and before we know it, it'll be August again.

Speed Racer Birthday

I can't believe Brayden's birthday is here already!!! I've had the location booked for a few months now and kept thinking I had tons of time, WRONG!!! It just seems like once Summer gets here everything is in fast forward mode, and it's all over before I have time to take it all in. Oh well that's life I guess. So after realizing this past weekend that I hadn't bought invitations I've been panicking just a little. As I've mentioned before Brayden's birthday party's don't always go as planned so I wanted to double check our location was still booked. Seeing as how it's been a while since I booked it and I have horrible luck I just knew it had been reserved to someone else. BUT all is well there, thank goodness!! So we decided on Speed Racer birthday, originally it was Hot Wheels but now we've decided on Speed Racer. I wanted something a little original and I found what I was looking for, it's semi old school Speed Racer with a little bit of the new Speed Racer. Brayden's watched allot of the original Speed Racer cartoons and this Friday we're taking him to see the movie. So if anyone has suggestions for party favors or decorations feel free to share.

Been A Long Time

Hey all!! It's been a long time since my last blog. Just really haven't been in the blogging mood, and well everything I had to blog about would've been negative stuff. I told myself when I started this blog I wouldn't talk about negative things going on in my life. But all is back to normal now.

Shawnn and I had a little getaway this past weekend. We went to Lake Tenkiller, we have some friends that have a boat and house there. We had a great time and can't wait to go back. We're actually hoping to go in a couple of weeks, guess we're hooked!!

Brayden's growing like a weed, I can't believe we'll be celebrating his 4th birthday in a month!! It's just a crazy thought to me to think he's 4 already. I still remember being pregnant with him.

Dentist Appointment

I had to have a root canal done so today I got my crown put on. Which is no big deal, but while there my dentist showed me my latest x-ray. I have a black spot under that tooth(the root canal one). Ok so he says this and all I think about is BAD BAD, I tend to do that huh!??! Anyways he explained he had never seen this before and at first was a little worried and actually was getting ready to call me to have me come back in so we could remove the tooth. But first he went to his dad, who is also a dentist, and found out he had patient that had the same thing. So they compared x-rays and they look identical. I already have an appt. with an oral surgeon to have some other stuff done, so they're going to check this out too. More than likely he said, it's fine that it's probably just a void. I really hope it's just a 'void'.

Brayden's Birthday

I know some people will probably think I'm crazy but after last year's birthday party I told Shawnn I will not stress or break down again because of a birthday party!! That's not what they are about. So we chose the date for Brayden's birthday party a year ago!! Crazy I know but his birthday is July 3rd, it can be a good thing. Most of our family and friends are either on vacation or at the lake for 4th of July, so it makes scheduling a party a little on the difficult side. So we either have to have his party early or late. At this age it's really not a big deal because he doesn't grasp that concept yet, in a few years will be a different story though. Last year was just awful, I know I shouldn't say that but I seriously wished I could've just not done a party. It was 10 times more stressful then anything to do with my wedding planning!! We couldn't do it this date because of whatever reason, couldn't do it here because it was booked or someone didn't feel comfortable or blah blah blah!! So we ended up having it at a friends house (since we don't have a house we can't fit that many people in our apt.) which was very nice of them and I'm very thankful for having friends like that. They weren't even there,they just let us have their house for the night. But it was so thrown together and I'm not a thrown together kinda person, I like having a plan. There was more to the awfulness but I'm not going there, I think I've complained enough. So because of last year's mess, I've already booked Brayden's birthday location. After lots of phone calls, research, comparsions, discussions between Shawnn and I.........we booked a pavillion at Ben Geren. It's a big pavilion with lots of tables and it's right next to the big play area and not to far from the restrooms (ugh!! I know), plus if we want to do any other kind of games we've got so much field. It's 3 months in advance but hey I will have no worries, unless of course we have rain that day, which I do have bad luck but I'm not even going there right now. I will deal with that if it happens!! So now I can rest and relax for the next couple of months before I start with all the decorations and theme. Brayden last night said he wants a Danny Phantom party, we have no clue where that came from. I'm going to try to steer him towards Scooby Doo or something like that.

Easter

We have had a fabulous weekend!! Yesterday afternoon I took Brayden to the Kisr egg hunt, what a nightmare. I doubt that we'll do it again. Way too many people and not near enough stuff. Brayden did get about 10 eggs but some kids didn't get any! It was also B.A.C.A.'s annual kids day at the park, so they had 2 bounce arounds, & face painting. Personally, I think they should've had a couple more bounce arounds for the amount of people there. We stood in line for at least 30 minutes for Brayden to bounce around for a couple of minutes.

This morning we went to church, it was a great service. Brayden had a blast playing, so I think we'll be going back!! I'm so very thankful I went. When I was younger we went to church as a family but we stopped going. Then when I was about 14 I started going to another church. But again I stopped going. Before I moved to Arkansas I had started back to church, this time I went to a non-denominational church, I loved it but then I moved here. I really want Brayden to be in church so I plan on us going from now on. This afternoon we had Easter lunch at Shawnn's grandma's. The kids hunted Easter eggs. Brayden only wanted the 'rocket' eggs that he brought. I had bought Brayden a bubble wand from Wal-Mart that was only a $1, and the kids had so much fun with the bubbles! We're now home and I have some stuff to get done for a busy week ahead. Hope everyone has had a great Easter!

Concerned Mommy

**Update** Seems that Brayden's knot has gone down some. We're still keeping an eye on it though. If it doesn't go away by next week we're going to take him to the dr.




Tonight I found a knot on Brayden's head. Naturally, I started thinking of all the horrible things it could be(yes I'm a pessimistic at times). So I called my mom to see if he had fell why he was at her house, and he hadn't. She tried to assure me everything was fine and that I just need to keep a close eye on it. I'm writing this right now and trying to fight the tears. I know right now I'm over reacting but I can't stop thinking what if, and how will I manage. Please please say a prayer for my lil guy.

~Easter's Already Here!!~

I feel like before long we'll be getting ready for Christmas again. We have lots planned for the weekend, hoping the weather stays nice so our plans aren't put off. I'm going to pick Brayden up tomorrow, so my parents don't have to drive all the way here for such a short trip. Then Friday is Brayden's Easter party at school and I'M OFF WORK!!! So Friday morning we'll being partying at Brayden's school then afterwards we're off to see the Easter Bunny. Brayden's teacher's informed them that the Easter Bunny is at the mall so they all need to go see him. The weather is suppose to be awesome here Friday, 70 and sunny!! I really hope the weather people are right this time. I want to spend the day outside relaxing, getting some sunshine, and playin with Brayden. Then Saturday I would like to take Brayden to a egg hunt, I know they have a few here so I guess I should check it out! Then we've got to dye some eggs and get ready for Sunday!

I'm so glad to finally see some sunshine today, I wish it were a little warmer but hey at least I've got sunshine.

Lazy, Slacker, Procrastinator

That's how I've been lately. Ever get in those moods where ya just don't want to do anything?? Seems like I get in those moods every 3 months or so, and I can't stand it!! I guess I could look at it like it's a short vacation. So this week it's back to reality. My house is disgusting, my car is too and work well, it's piled high kinda like my laundry!! But my boss is gone this week so just like the saying goes "when the cats away the mice will play", that's what I've been doing!! It's only Tuesday so I haven't taken full advantage of him being gone. I finally got off the computer and started doing the work but had to take a break to make a lil post. So back to work I go. Hope everyone's enjoying all this rain we're getting.

Brayden's Headed to Oklahoma

My parents are going to have Brayden starting tonight until sometime next week, it's my mom's spring break so she's going to spend it with Brayden. Brayden of course is stoked and woke up at 6:30 this morning, and his first words were "I'm ready to go to nana's", it was so cute. So here in an hour actually I'll be leaving to take him to meet my parents half way. It's a bittersweet thing with me, I'm going to miss the little booger but at the same time it's going to be a much needed break for myself. I'll be able to get all those little things done around the house, that I don't normally do b/c I want to hurry up so I can spend time with Brayden. Tomorrow night Shawnn and I are having a date, nothing fancy, just cooking dinner together and going to cuddle and watch a movie. Those are my favorite kind of dates. We can come home from work get in our comfy clothes and just relax! Saturday Shawnn's working so I'll have the entire day to my self. I plan on finishing my kid sale stuff and getting our Spring/Summer clothes out.

Hope everyone's having a fantastic week so far, already HuMpDaY!

Trying A New Approach

I absolutely dread Mondays, I know most people don't look forward to Mondays but I really really dread them. So last Monday I told myself I was going to have a different attitude about it. My attitude is what's making my Monday's so horrid. Anything and everything that could go wrong usually does on Mondays. I've been reading The Secret every now and then(don't have allot of time to just sit and read) and what I'm getting from it is, Everything that happens to you good or bad is depending on how you look at things. So that's why I've decided to give Mondays another chance, hahaha!....and let me tell ya, having a good attitude about the dreaded day has really helped. Today has flown by, it's been crazy busy around here at work. I've even had to deal with rude people, and anyone that knows me knows I can't stand to deal with rude people and they can just ruin my day so fast, but not today.

We're still suppose to get some snow this evening!! I can't believe, I don't believe it actually. I'll believe it when I see it. We're doing one of my most favorite things tonight.....GOING OUT TO DINNER. I love going out to eat, especially during the week and especially when it's out of the blue.

Hope everyone's Monday has been as fabolous as mine.

WONDERFUL WEEKEND

What a wonderful way to start a new month, with a wonderful weekend. The weather was awesome here in Arkansas. Friday night Brayden and I went over to Nadine's to have pizza and hang out. Brayden had been a little coughy for a few days, we had gave hime some cough medicine but by that night he was running fever, pale, sneezy, and a runny nose. So we came home to give him medicine but nothing we had was for those symptoms so off to Wal-Mart I went I went ahead and stocked up on a few different kinds and brands, I want to be prepared, ya know. He woke up Saturday alot better, I was very thankful. It was such a beautiful weekend and I wanted to take full advantage of that.

Saturday morning Shawnn had to work & then that afternoon he had to bowl in a tournament so it was just Brayden and I for the day. We went to the park for a couple of hours, and had a wonderful time. Today we went back to the park because it's suppose to SNOW tomorrow. Apparently we're suppose to have 4 to 6 inches of snow by Tuesday here in Ft Smith, cRaZy!! I'll believe it when I see it.

Also today I made my 1st roast!! I've been trying new recipes here lately and found that I really enjoy it. I've always enjoyed baking but it's a nice feeling to try a new recipe and it turn out!!haha. The roast turned out pretty good, Nadine made one a couple of weeks ago and hers was absolutely the best roast I've ever had. Mine on the other hand wasn't as wonderful but it was edible and that's what counts. Maybe I need to get her recipe,maybe she doesn't something different or buys a different kind of roast, yes there different kinds?!?!

So right now I'm finishing up some laundry, didn't get my whole house cleaned like I wanted but it was such a beautiful weekend I couldn't stay cooped up any longer. I'm finally starting to feel better, just still have a cough that seems to want to hang around, but hey I can handle the cough as long as I don't feel like I did. Poor Shawnn is getting it now. He woke up this morning sneezing, and it continued. We went to grab breakfast and I swear he sneezed the whole entire time we were gone. Then we took Brayden to the park and he sneezed allot there too! By the time we got home from the park he was stopped up and his thoart was getting sore.

Hope everyone had a good weekend!!

Cabin Fever

I feel like a broken record but........I'M SO READY FOR SPRING!!! I spent my whole weekend in bed sick. I started getting sick Wednesday afternoon, just started out with a little cough then by the evening by body hurt and I was running a little bit of fever. Wednesday night is Shawnn's bowling night so Brayden and I go to Nadine's house for dinner. While there I started throwing up. Once I threw up a few times I did start feeling better. Thursday morning I woke up still hurting but because I had missed Monday and Tuesday of work I had to go in. I managed to make it until 12:30, went home and slept til 7:30!! I felt better Friday, but then Saturday I woke up feeling horrible again. I have this horrible cough and rattle in my chest. If I'm not better within a few more days I will go to the dr.,hoping I get better with over the counter meds, No insurance!
I just knew I was going to feel better yesterday, or at least I was hoping to, but I didn't. So this week is going to be a busy one. Tomorrow is the first day of Women Run Arkansas, which I'm so so excited about. Time to get ready for warmer weather!!!

It Has Been A Long Time

Well I've officially joined a walking club. This club starts next Tuesday and will meet every Tuesday and Thursday @ 6 pm for the next 10 weeks, ending with a 5K walk/run in Conway on the 10th of May. I found this thru another blogger and thought I would see what it was about. Man was I excited when I got on there and saw that it was FREE!! They have different levels to join but I'm going to start at the very bottom and hopefully next Spring I'll join the beginner's running. Shawnn and I have seriously talked about joining a gym and we are hopefully in a couple of weeks, it's just so expensive. The gym we used to work out at has started a Zumba class, which I can't wait to try out. It's 30 minutes of Zumba and then 30 minutes of kickboxing 3 times a week. I can't wait to get back to the gym.

Well I've got lots to blog about but need to get back to work, I just wanted to share my excitment with everyone.

New Camera

Here's our new camera we just got in today! It's a Sony T70,very small! I can't wait to take pics with it tonight.

Counting Down The Days

Till Spring that is. This weather is really starting to take a toll on me. I've never really been one to like the cold weather. I love being outside but can't stand being cold. So usually by Feb. I'm really starting to get cabin fever. I need warm and sunshine. I'm thinking about starting tanning after next week, so I can get ahead start on some color and see if it helps with my blah mood. Shawnn and I are going to Big Cedar next weekend,well actually we'll be leaving Sat. or Sun. and coming home Tuesday, so hopefully a couple days off work and away from home will do me some good. Not that I'm glad to be going away from my sugar booger, it'll be nice to not be at home where the phone will be ringing and chores will be staring me down. Usually when Shawnn and I go away we go away to do absolutely nothing. Last March we went to Big Cedar for a weekend and that's exactly what we did. Our condo had a jacuzzi so I took full advantage of that, we played cards, went to dinner at Devil's Pool there on the resort, and that was all. It was great, having a 2 year old(at the time) and both of us working full time, we didn't have allot of down time, and now with a three year old we still don't! This time we are going shopping, Shawnn hates shopping so usually I go by myself. But he agreed to go do some, so I'm happy with that.

I've really been contemplating changing jobs. But I really think it's my mood, not the job. I'm tellin' ya this time of the year really gets to me. I went to lunch with a friend today, who happens to be a little older than me, so she's wiser and more exiperenced. She really helped me understand what was really going on. I really do have a great job. I have the abilitly to take off whenever, if I need my paycheck ahead of time he gives it to me, I make good money, I've made great friends. The biggest con is not having insurance. I'm going to talk to my boss about this because it's for sure something I need and want. But with any job you will have your pro's and con's. So I've decided I'm going to wait, time will tell. Everything happens for a reason!

Well I was just informed by Brayden that I broke his heart. Poor guy, life's rough! He had some bubble gum and has been told numerous times tonight to stop playing with it. So finally I told him if he took it out of his mouth again it was going in the trash. Well not even two minutes later it was out of his mouth. So having to stick to my word, because I totally believe if you say it you had better stick with it, especially when it comes to your child. I made him go throw it away. As he went to throw it away he was crying & said Mommy you broke my heart.

Well time to get the little guy ready for bed.

Weekend & Migraines

Our weekend was quite uneventful, which was nice. Friday night we went to dinner @ Gringo's. Saturday Shawnn played golf, Brayden and I stayed at home. We hung out and did some laundry. Then Saturday evening we went over to a furniture store that's going out of business,I bought a lamp for $5,great buy, and a dresser for $25. I haven't picked up the dresser yet but hopefully we'll get it this week. It's not a big dresser, I actually plan on using it for a night stand, then when we get a house we'll buy new bedroom furniture, so I'll either move the dresser to Brayden's room for him to use as a night stand or in the guest room.


I woke up about 5 am this morning with a horrible migraine. Really all migraines are horrible but I really hate it when I wake up in the middle of the night with one. This has happened to me 3 other times. The weird thing was I was dreaming I had a migraine and then the pain woke me up. Of course, when I started getting sick I didn't have anything to throw up so I kept dry heaving! I finally got up around 6 to go take a shower to see if that would help with the pressure, no luck. So I finally fell asleep thanks to some tylenol pm. Woke up around 11:30 feeling lots better but my head was so sore. I'm talking so sore that I couldn't move my head. As the day has gone on I've started feeling better, but anyone that's had migraine knows you don't feel normal for a while, usually the next day I feel normal. I'm going in to see my dr. about them b/c I'm having them more frequently and they seem to be getting worse. I've talked to my dr. about them once before, but they've gotten worse since then. I'm sure nothing's wrong b/c I've had migraines ever since I was a little girl, but I just want that confirmation.

Random

Haven't really had allot to blog about lately. So I thought I would conjure up something to talk about.


I'm really wanting some snow!! Well really I'm wanting it to snow so I can stay home from work and cuddle with my baby boy, play in the snow, make some soup, and watch lots of lifetime movies. They say we're suppose to get some this afternoon, but I don't have my hopes up. I figure what will happen is, Shawnn and I are going to Big Cedar on the 16th of Feb. for a few days. So it'll snow then & we won't get to go. I know I shouldn't think like that because those kinds of thoughts will make it happen. That's something I've learned from The Secret, if you think negative then that's what you get. Speaking of negative, I'm trying to learn to avoid negative people and negative situations. I have a tendacy to think negative but I really have noticed when I don't I'm so much happier.


This will be the first weekend in a while that I'll be home, and I'm excited about it. Our house is really looking like I haven't been there either. Hopefully this weekend I'll get caught up on laundry and get things reorganized. Life is allot better when my house is organized. I know I've talked about this before, but it's so true. Having a clean, organized home can make me so happy. I hate going home to a sink full of dirty dishes, and piles of laundry that need to be done. But I get lazy sometimes, and it gets all behind then it makes it really hard to do!



Sunday's Super Bowl of course, we've been invited to 3 parties now, and I want to go to all 3 of them but Shawnn says that's not possible!! To me it's possible though!!! Two of the parties we'll be able to take Brayden and the other one we wouldn't be able to. He's stayed with his Bugga and Howie more than usually lately so I really want him to be able to go with us. But the third party is some new friends of ours, that we really want to get to know better. So I have quite a delima as to which party to go to, if any I may just stay home. I don't want to hurt feelings by not going to the other two parties, geez it's a super bowl party they'll get over it if they do get upset!! See I worry way too much about other peoples thoughts and feelings and I've got to stop that. So if any of you that have invited us to your party Sunday read this, I'm sorry if we don't make it to your house, it's not that we don't like any of you, or we like the other people better.



Last night I went out with some girlfriends for some Papa's pizza and beer. It was just what I needed yesterday too. I have PMDD and take Yaz, the birth control to help with it. But I forgot to take it a couple of days so I had to stop taking it for the month so my body didn't get all out of whack. So I've been a little bitchy lately. I really thought I was going to strangle someone yesterday, but I feel tons better today. I guess pizza and beer was just what I needed!! I've been going out more than usual here this past month and it's really nice. It's nice to get out and laugh and be silly with friends. Plus talking with my girlfriends about marriage work and kiddo's makes me realize I'm not crazy or anal, I'm normal because they have the same thoughts or feelings.



I've recently learned that peoples lives aren't always what the seem. This probably sounds mean but I'm actually glad for that. No one's life is perfect no matter how much they try to prove it or show it, we all have problems. It seems like those that really try to show and go around saying oh my life's perfect, those are the ones that really have lots of problems. I try to stay true, I don't like lies so I try not to tell them. I'm proud of who I've become. I'll tell you I haven't always been proud of who I was or things I've done in my past but again no one's perfect, and realizing that makes me happy. It's ok to make mistakes, mistakes make us. My life is far from perfect, We had a child 9 months after our first date, no we didn't sleep together on our first date, but obviously we did before marriage,Brayden was 3 weeks early, and I really don't care what anyone says or thinks about it. I wouldn't trade him for anything, god had a plan for me. Shawnn had lots of debt when we got together, so there for, we've had a rough 4 years, finacially. It's almost paid off and I can't wait. We missed out on alone time. We had 9 months of alone time and that was it. That used to bother me and I had a major security problem. I was worried about mine and Shawnn's relationship because there were lots of stresses in our lives,not just the stress of money a new baby and basically a new relationship but there were some issues within our family that put allot of stress on me more so than Shawnn, but you know we made it through all of that and our relationship is stronger than ever. I feel like if our relationship could with stand all of that when it was brand new, we could handle everything. We didn't get married until Brayden was over a year and half old. That was something we agreed on when we found out I was pregnant, just because we're having a baby doesn't mean we're getting married. I refuse to raise my child in a miserable home life, so we waited to make sure that's what we wanted, and it was!!

I'll have to continue my rambling at a later time. Gettin' pretty busy at work.