Random

Haven't really had allot to blog about lately. So I thought I would conjure up something to talk about.


I'm really wanting some snow!! Well really I'm wanting it to snow so I can stay home from work and cuddle with my baby boy, play in the snow, make some soup, and watch lots of lifetime movies. They say we're suppose to get some this afternoon, but I don't have my hopes up. I figure what will happen is, Shawnn and I are going to Big Cedar on the 16th of Feb. for a few days. So it'll snow then & we won't get to go. I know I shouldn't think like that because those kinds of thoughts will make it happen. That's something I've learned from The Secret, if you think negative then that's what you get. Speaking of negative, I'm trying to learn to avoid negative people and negative situations. I have a tendacy to think negative but I really have noticed when I don't I'm so much happier.


This will be the first weekend in a while that I'll be home, and I'm excited about it. Our house is really looking like I haven't been there either. Hopefully this weekend I'll get caught up on laundry and get things reorganized. Life is allot better when my house is organized. I know I've talked about this before, but it's so true. Having a clean, organized home can make me so happy. I hate going home to a sink full of dirty dishes, and piles of laundry that need to be done. But I get lazy sometimes, and it gets all behind then it makes it really hard to do!



Sunday's Super Bowl of course, we've been invited to 3 parties now, and I want to go to all 3 of them but Shawnn says that's not possible!! To me it's possible though!!! Two of the parties we'll be able to take Brayden and the other one we wouldn't be able to. He's stayed with his Bugga and Howie more than usually lately so I really want him to be able to go with us. But the third party is some new friends of ours, that we really want to get to know better. So I have quite a delima as to which party to go to, if any I may just stay home. I don't want to hurt feelings by not going to the other two parties, geez it's a super bowl party they'll get over it if they do get upset!! See I worry way too much about other peoples thoughts and feelings and I've got to stop that. So if any of you that have invited us to your party Sunday read this, I'm sorry if we don't make it to your house, it's not that we don't like any of you, or we like the other people better.



Last night I went out with some girlfriends for some Papa's pizza and beer. It was just what I needed yesterday too. I have PMDD and take Yaz, the birth control to help with it. But I forgot to take it a couple of days so I had to stop taking it for the month so my body didn't get all out of whack. So I've been a little bitchy lately. I really thought I was going to strangle someone yesterday, but I feel tons better today. I guess pizza and beer was just what I needed!! I've been going out more than usual here this past month and it's really nice. It's nice to get out and laugh and be silly with friends. Plus talking with my girlfriends about marriage work and kiddo's makes me realize I'm not crazy or anal, I'm normal because they have the same thoughts or feelings.



I've recently learned that peoples lives aren't always what the seem. This probably sounds mean but I'm actually glad for that. No one's life is perfect no matter how much they try to prove it or show it, we all have problems. It seems like those that really try to show and go around saying oh my life's perfect, those are the ones that really have lots of problems. I try to stay true, I don't like lies so I try not to tell them. I'm proud of who I've become. I'll tell you I haven't always been proud of who I was or things I've done in my past but again no one's perfect, and realizing that makes me happy. It's ok to make mistakes, mistakes make us. My life is far from perfect, We had a child 9 months after our first date, no we didn't sleep together on our first date, but obviously we did before marriage,Brayden was 3 weeks early, and I really don't care what anyone says or thinks about it. I wouldn't trade him for anything, god had a plan for me. Shawnn had lots of debt when we got together, so there for, we've had a rough 4 years, finacially. It's almost paid off and I can't wait. We missed out on alone time. We had 9 months of alone time and that was it. That used to bother me and I had a major security problem. I was worried about mine and Shawnn's relationship because there were lots of stresses in our lives,not just the stress of money a new baby and basically a new relationship but there were some issues within our family that put allot of stress on me more so than Shawnn, but you know we made it through all of that and our relationship is stronger than ever. I feel like if our relationship could with stand all of that when it was brand new, we could handle everything. We didn't get married until Brayden was over a year and half old. That was something we agreed on when we found out I was pregnant, just because we're having a baby doesn't mean we're getting married. I refuse to raise my child in a miserable home life, so we waited to make sure that's what we wanted, and it was!!

I'll have to continue my rambling at a later time. Gettin' pretty busy at work.

If I Had A Day All Alone.......

Edit:I feel like I need to clarify trashy magazines......I mean trashy gossip,Not porn!!




I would lay in bed with the laptop, lifetime, and jello salad. I would read trashy magazines, read some of The Secret, do my nails, oh and sleep. That's how I would spend a day all alone. Don't get me wrong I love spending quality time with my boys, but me time is wonderful. B.B.(before Brayden) I couldn't stand to be alone, now I dream of a day alone. It has been a llllloooonnnnngggg time since I've had one. So long I couldn't even tell you when. But oh well, I wouldn't trade either one, Shawnn or Brayden, to be alone.

Gosh I have so much to update on I don't even know where to begin.

Brayden and I went to Ardmore this past weekend to visit my parents. We had a great time, lots of relaxing. I feel like I don't do that at my house. I always feel like I have to be doing something, so it was nice to be able to actually spend my weekend doing nothing and not feeling guilty about it. I did get my hair done, it had been a while since I had it highlighted. I went with blonde and red this time. I've never had red in my hair but I'm loving it!!! Saturday night I met up with some friends to go have dinner. That was pretty much our weekend.

I was suppose to meet with a mortgage lender last Friday but had decided not to since we knew we wouldn't be buying within the next few months. Then today I decided to go ahead and give her a call, and I'm so glad I did. We do qualify for a loan and our credit is actually allot better then we both thought. We still aren't going to buy for a little while but she was able to give me some things to work on until we are able and ready. The end is so near I feel like I can reach out and touch it. I've learned so much patience with this whole experience. I'm so glad we didn't jump into anything before. I've seen people do that and then they aren't happy 6 months later. I want to find a house that I love, not just like.

Dinner with Friends

So last night I went out with Nadine, Monica, and Jenn(she's a new friend). We went to Chili's and had a grand time. I just love meeting new people. Jenn was such a sweetie, and I look forward to getting to know her more. I do have pics from last night, well I didn't take pics but Nadine took quite a few so as soon as I get them I'll post some. It's so great to have girl time, it really helps me realize I'm not crazy, I'm a very normal person actually!!! Anywho, Brayden stayed with Bugga and Howie aka grandma and grandpa howie, last night so he was home bright and early this morning. We went to the mall first thing this morning and I spent $75!!!! at Bath and Body. That's so not like me and I was actually shocked that that's how much I spent, but they were having a heck of a sale. But I will be taking some of it back b/c I can't spend that kind of money of Bath and Body. It was just me and Brayden that went and Brayden's at that age that he really doesn't fit in a umberlla stroller anymore but still a little young to be still and not touch stuff. So needless to say after Bath and Body I was ready to go, plus I had way too many bags from there so I was uncomfortable. I plan on going back later this afternoon by myself to look at some other stores. I did find Brayden the cutest jacket that I've actually been eyeing for a while at JCP's and I had it in my hand to buy, but I decided to wait b/c I didn't have anymore patience to stand in line. So I really hope they still have it when I go back, it was only $5.99 original $20, that's a great buy!!!! I finally got Brayden a bookshelf today too. I really wanted to get him a real wood bookshelf so that he could keep it for a long time, but I couldn't find one the color of his bed, which is what I wanted. So I just got him a cheap one from Wal-Mart. After thinking about it I decided that was probably the best thing to do b/c he'll eventually get new bedroom furniture so I'll just get him a nice one then. Well I'm off to start cleaning, Brayden's room is first!!!!!

IT'S FRIDAY.......

And I'm so excited!!!! It has been a crazy week at work. This is the first full week of work we've had since Christmas. My boss and I both said Monday how much we were dreading coming back for a full week. Luckily this week has flown by, probably because of all the crazy things we had going on.

Shawnn goes back to the dr. today, so please say a little prayer that everything goes better this time.

We really have a quiet weekend planned. I think tonight I'm going to go out for dinner and drinks with a couple girlfriends. It's been about a year since the last time I went out with these 2 just by ourselves. Tomorrow will probably be the usual cleaning session and laundry. Oh I just remembered our mall is having their mall walk this weekend and I get paid today!!! I'm also on the hunt for Brayden a small book shelf, his book collection has grown and he got lots of games for Christmas so I want to get them better organized. I want it to match his bed and for it to be small. So hopefully I'll be making a couple of purchases this weekend. I love shopping, just wish I could do it more. Oh well someday hopefully.

Last night Shawnn and I were watching HSN and they had bedding on there so that got us to talking about our future bedroom. I informed my wonderful husband that when we buy a house our bedroom will be the first room we do. Our bedroom has never been decorated, it's always been the room that's been neglected(everyone has one). So I'm going to start searching for stuff for our future bedroom. I've already mentioned how I invisioned it in a previous post, so now I just need to find the perfect stuff for it.

We've decided we're going to start our process of buying our first home. Meaning, we're going to talk to a lender to get prequalified. Take care of things that are on our credit. Start working on our credit. Start reading books on 1st time home buying, I want to be as prepared as possible. Start looking at houses, (which I've been doing for a long time) so we know what we want. And the biggest of them all, well besides the working on our credit part, saving money.

So if any of you have any wonderful advice on buying a home please feel free to leave me your comments. Please no negative comments or bad stories, I know they're out there and I'm sure we'll have some of our own. But I'm trying to stay positive and I don't want to go into this with a bad attitude.

Hope everyone's had a fantistic week and has an even better weekend.

~~Jamie~~

More Resolutions

1. Stop worrying about other people. I care way too much about other peoples thoughts. I don't mean I'm going to stop caring about people or become a total b%*ch, I just mean say how I feel. If I don't agree with something, say it. My feelings and thoughts are just as important as the next persons. I've always been this way, and it's caused me heartache and problems. So this year this is 2nd on my list (taking better care of myself is 1st) of resolutions.

2. Stop being a procrastinator. I mean seriously I've been putting off filing forever just because, not because I'm lazy just because. That's absolutely stupid.

3. Read more. My mom got me The Secret for Christmas. I've started reading it but it's one of those books I like to read very slow and may read a page twice, just because I want to take it all in and make sure I get it. But I want to read more books like that, motivational. Decorating books for when we buy a house. Dave Ramsey books, if you haven't checked him out you totally should, he's a great guy. Most of you know, Shawnn and I are paying off some major(well maybe not major to some people but major to us) debt, and then we'll buy a home. Well neither one us want to go back down this road so that's what Dave is for, to help us not get there again. To teach us how to budget and make good financial decisions........that really should've been a resolution by itself, oh well.

4.Continue bettering myself. This is something I tried to always do. Everyone can better themselves. Try to be a better mommy, wife, daughter, friend, worker.

5. Be more spiritual. I want to start back to church. I want to raise Brayden in church. I've been having lots of thoughts of this lately and feel like I really need to do this for me. Part of my resolution to taking better care of myself and being a better person. If you read this and pray, please pray for me. Pray that I make the decision to go back to church. I have a church that I want to go to and know several families that go there. I just can't seem to go, that's why I feel I need prayer.

6. Take better care of myself. This is my number one resolution. Phyiscally emotionally mentally I need to do a better job of taking care of myself. I think all of my other resolutions will work hand and hand with this one.

7.Better my marriage. No Shawnn and I aren't having problems, I feel like our marriage gets stronger and stronger as time passes. Shawnn and I were shorted on our 'time', yes I know this is our fault, even though neither of us would change a thing, we love our Brayden, but it does make things hard at times. Shawnn is a great husband, I know everyone thinks their husbands are great and I'm sure they are. Shawnn really trys and I appreciate that so much, way more than he knows. He has became a better father, son, worker, and husband since we've been married. So this year I want to really focus on 'us'.

So that's it for now, I may think of more as time goes on. So if I do I'll let ya know.

P.S. Janet leave me some comments sometime ;)

If I didn't have to work full time.....

How great life would be. Really though if I could be a stay at home mom full time, or at least part time, I wouldn't mind working somewhere part time. I would get so much done. My house would be spotless, I'm talkin baseboards cleaned, cob webs gone (I do try to keep them gone) that kind of clean. My husband would come home to great meals every night, we would go to bed in a made bed (meaning I would make the bed every day). Everything would be organized. I would love to learn how to sew, and I would work on my creativeness. Oh and I would join the gym and that would be the way I start my day off, going to work out.

Oh how I dream of the day!!

No Fair!!!

Yesterday was such an awesome day. Even though I know it's just Jan. and winter has just begun, I still had a bit of hope yesterday, thinking it was starting to fill like spring. Spring is probably my most favorite season, with Summer a close second. Something about it just makes me so happy. I love the smell of the air, you know what I'm talking about?? It's so fresh and clean. We had all of our windows open last night in the house and it had that 'springy' smell to it. I sat outside for a while, just thinking of all the things I want to do this spring. I guess I'm getting spring fever, and it's only Jan. 8th, bummer. I really think winter should only be till Feb. 28th, I could live with that.

My Husband Has Issues

No not mental issues, or at least not that we are aware of. For some reason every year he gets this urge to get a new tv. So we're getting a new tv tomorrow. I look at it like this, at least it's not a new car every year. If it were me wanting a new car every year that would be different though!!! It's a 50 inch, was going to be a 60 but thankfully he came to his senses and realized we didn't need a 60 inch in our apartment. We will be buying a house this year but still we'll be in our apartment for a while. I'm quite excited about it because we're getting an armoir to put it in. Shawnn had me go look at the store where we're getting it from so I could see this armior they have. He said he knew I would like it so he went ahead and got it. Just goes to show he really does listen and pay attention to what I want and like. While we were there I said "oh no, we have to get something for all my pics and knick knacks I have on the other tv stand". Shawnn said "nope I've already thought about that, there's room on top of the armior". That made me feel good that he really thought about me in this purchase.

New Year Plan

So this past weekend I started my new year's cleaning. This is something I've started doing, just going thru everything and reorganizing, throwing away stuff, getting stuff ready for a yard sale, things like that. I figure since the new year is about starting over, might as well clean stuff out too. I didn't get everything done b/c my mom came down Sunday and I didn't want to clean while she was here, so this weekend I have to finish it all up. I did get our Christmas tree down and all the decorations put up, our apartment looks so bare now. Brayden cried b/c I took the tree down, he's still learning that Christmas does end!! Usually for my new year resolution I always say I'm going to lose weight, well this year I'm not even saying that, I hate when I don't follow thru with something. SO this year I'm going to take better care of myself. With the scare of Shawnn's health, we both have thought allot about our health, so we're changing that this year. Another one of my resolutions every year is to become a better person, I feel like that's an area everyone can get better at. Also this weekend, I'm going to sit down and work up a budget for this year. This is the last year we'll be paying off debt, I'm so excited about this. We're hoping by the end of the year we'll be moving into our first home.

Jamie