Shawnn Update**

Shawnn goes to the dr. Dec. 14th, so hopefully we'll find out what's goin on with him. He is however feeling much better, he's actually back to his old self.

Other news, Carl's (father in law) dad passed away early Tuesday morning. It was not expected, so it was a shock to us all. He had gotten sick back in May and never got his strength back. We know he's in a better place now. So please keep our family in your prayers.

Hope everyone is having a good week, just 2 more days.

Jamie

Shawwn & Thanksgiving

Shawnn has been having severe headaches for about 2 months now. After missing lots of work lately and the headaches not getting better he finally went to the dr. last Wednesday. They put him on blood pressure and some headache meds. His blood pressure was a little high she said. They're suppose to be making him an appt. with a regular dr. so he can go in for a complete physical. We know pretty much what they're going to say, he needs to lose weight, which we both know and that's good. The dr. he saw last Wednesday was at Pro-med, so all she said was 'here take this'. So he started the meds that day, he's been severely dizzy and sick whenever he tatkes the blood pressure med. He finally decided he would take them at night, so last night he took them after dinner, and everything seemed fine. Then this morning it started all over again, dizzy and sick to his stomach. He called the dr. and of course the dr. he saw is on vacation and he has to wait to talk to a nurse. I'm getting very worried, his head is constanting hurting. He said this morning, all the lights are bothering him, which usually is a side effect of a migraine, but Shawnn's had migraines and he said this feels nothing like one. The dr. did say if the headaches don't go away he'll have to go in for some tests. I'm trying very hard not to freak out, at first it was easy b/c we found the day before Thanksgiving, so I had lots of stuff to occupy my time with.


As for Thanksgiving it was good. My parents brought Brayden back Wednesday evening, so we had lots of catching up to do. Thursday I got up and started getting things ready for our dinner. My parents had to get back that night b/c my dad had to work Friday : ( so our family dinner got push up by a couple of hours. We headed to grandma's (shawnn's grandma's) for lunch. I already had the turkey in the oven and pies baking before we left. We ate lunch and visited for a couple of hours then headed back home to finish cooking and spend some more time with my parents. Everything turned out great and it was allot easier than I thought it was going to be.


Friday I slept in, no early bird shopping for me. Brayden and I did go to Wal-Mart to finish getting Christmas decorations. Saturday & Sunday were lazy days. We did go yesterday to get the Christmas tree out of storage. Brayden and I spent a few hours putting the tree together and decorating. I still have a few things I want to get to decorate with and I need to start Christmas shopping, horrible I know some people already have all of theirs done. I seem to wait til the last minute to do allot of things.

~~Jamie~~

Holiday Spirit

Today has been a Monday for sure, why are Monday's so crappy?!?!? I know I'm always starting my blogs out complaining about how Monday's stink or the weekend went by too fast or something along those lines, sorry I'm a bit negative today I know. It didn't start out like that, but shortly after getting to work it went down hill. If it wasn't one thing it was another here today. The phone was constant, the lobby was full, I finally went to lunch around 3, crazy. We have our moments like this though, I really need to be positive about it.

The weekend was nice, Shawnn was sick Friday, he got the bug Brayden and I had at the beginning of the week. He managed to ride with me to take Brayden to meet my parents halfway. They're keeping him til Wednesday or Thursday, Brayden loves going to school with his nana and since they only had 2 days this week she asked to keep him. So Shawnn and I had a nice quiet weekend.

This week is the start of the holidays, I'm ready. I went to Wal-Mart last night and picked up some new Christmas decorations, I can't wait to decorate, it's going to look so good. I just knew Shawnn was goin to be just as excited as I was when I told him about the 'black and silver' Christmas decorations. Here's the convo:
Jamie: Hey did I tell you how we're decorating for Christmas this year?!?!?
Shawnn:first of all, we're decorating??!! and secondly, no you didn't...
Jamie:oh you're going to love it, black and silver!!!!!!
Shawnn: that's Raider colors
Jamie: *shoots him the look*, why do you turn everything into FOOTBALL?!?!?!
Shawnn: that sounds great honey
Jamie: that's better....

This week is goin to be a busy one. Glad it's a short work week, I'm ready for some time off of work. Eric and I are cooking Thanksgiving for our parents this year. I'm excited I feel so 'grown up'. We went last night to get the turkey and all the food. Friday I want to do some Christmas shopping, Shawnn and I made our list of who and want we want to get everybody, now we just have to get it all. Plan on decorating for Christmas and relax.

Hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving.

~Jamie~

Blah....

It's Monday again!!!

Feeling pretty blah today not sure what's up but it needs to go away. I'm feelin like this week is goin to drag by, because next weeks Thanksgiving and I'm off Thursday and Friday. I hate when that happens, not getting off work 2 days in a row but when the week drags by. Maybe I should try not rushing it, huh??

This past weekend was ok, not great, not bad, just ok. I was sickly most of it. I woke up Saturday morning all congested, so I slept most of Saturday. Not at all what I had planned to do! Then yesterday I woke up feeling good and then bam! just like that I got a migraine, 3rd one in a month!! I'm thinking maybe it's due to being outside for long periods of time. Saturday night we went to a bonfire, and I'm thinking the smoke from that help contribute to the migraine. So yesterday around 11:30 I was taking meds. and goin back to bed. Again, not what I had planned for the day. So needless to say my weekend didn't go quite as planned.

I did meet some new friends this weekend. Not sure what's gotten into my husband here lately but we've been doin lots lately. I'm not complaining because I'm lovin it!!! Shawnn's a major I mean MAJOR homebody, so for him to spend 4 weekends in a row doin something that's way big!!! .

I Love This.......

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~~Christmas Decorations~~

Call me crazy, or non traditional but this year for Christmas I'm decorating our tree and Apt. in black and silver!! I love it, Nadine and I were at Sam's on night when we found black and silver Christmas cards. We both fell in love! I've been looking at the Christmas decorations at Wal-Mart and saw all of their black and silver decorations and I'm falling in love even more, so I've decided that's what it's going to be.


Jamie~~~

Let the Stress Begin....

So the holidays are approaching fast, I'm excited about it but yet I'm starting to stress already. I'm telling myself "you will not stress this year, you will enjoy the holidays and that's it". When I was younger I loved the holidays, you get out of school, people buy you stuff, you get to eat great food, see your family, what's there not to like and be happy about?!? Well then I became an adult and a parent and things are allot different now. I work a full time job, yes we'll be closed the day of Thanksgiving and the day after, Christmas Eve, Christmas day, and the day after Christmas, but I don't get off work like I did when I was in school. People still buy me stuff, but I also have to buy people stuff, still get to eat great food, but I feel guilty about stuffing my face these days, still get to see family which is wonderful. But it's not the same as when I was a kid, I have more worries then I did then. I now have a second family that I have to share holidays with, before all I had to worry about was my family. How do you make holidays fair?? I mean someone's got to be put on the back burner and I hate that, it stresses me out!!!! Shawnn and I will have to come up with a plan so we get to see all of our families and no one's left out. I just don't know how to make this happen. But regardless I'm going to enjoy the holidays for my sake and my families sake. This is the first year Brayden really knows what's goin on, and that makes me happy yet still stressed. But I'm trying very hard to make the happiness out weigh the stress, I have too. Everything Brayden sees he says "I want that, ohh I want that too". A three year old has no concept of money or can't understand you can't have everything you want. We've already been telling him "Brayden Santa can't bring you everything you want or ask for, he has to take toys to all the boys and girls in the world". But I'm loving how excited he's getting about it all.

I'm thinking of cooking Thanksgiving dinner for my family this year. It'll be the first time, my mom has always cooked Thanksgiving dinner and Christmas dinner so this year I want her to be able to sit back and enjoy her time off work. I'll keep you updated.

I know I've done lots of rambling today but hey that is the name of my game right?!?!

~Jamie~

~~Busy But Fun Weekend~~

This weekend was lots of fun, I haven't had that busy of a weekend in a long time. Friday night, Brayden and I went to get our haircut, man we were both overdue. I was very proud of Brayden he did everything the lady told him to do, he even sit there while I got my haircut, very good for a 3 year old!

Saturday Brayden went with my aunt to a family reunion where he got to hang out with his nana and papaw while Shawnn and I went to the Razorback game. We had a great time. It was my first game to go to, so it was very exciting for me. Apparently I picked a good game to go to b/c we WON!! Definatly not something I would want to do every home game. To Shawnn and I we have just as much fun hanging out with friends grilling and watching the game on T.V., but it's something I want to do at least a couple of times a season. We went to Hog Haus Brewery, really cool. The guys enjoyed different kinds of beer while I stuck to Bud Light. Then we headed to the game to find parking, we ran into a friend of Shawnn's who was parked close to the game so we parked there tailgated for a bit then off to the game we went.

Yesterday I was suppose to go get my permenant eyeliner. I woke up all stopped up and had a horrible headache so I didn't think it would be very smart if I went and had my eyes poked with a needle, so I stayed home. Hopefully I'll get to go have it done in a few weeks.

This coming weekend I plan on getting Christmas stuff ready, maybe doin a little Christmas shopping and get our house good and clean.

Hope everyone has a good week!

~Jamie~

Where has the Year Gone??

I cannot believe we're officially in November! I'm so excited about the upcoming holidays, Brayden is really into everything this year. Halloween was absolutely wonderful, it brought back so many memories of Halloween as a child. I had planned on taking him to the mall then to some church festivities but instead we went door to door trick or treating and it was the best. I loved trick or treating as a child and I'm so glad I got to take Brayden. Anymore you never know, it's so risky and so many people don't do the door to door anymore. We went to Fianna Hills, it was crazy up there. There were so many trick or treaters up there, it was great though. I asked Brayden on our way home if he had a good time and he said "that was awesome mommy". I can only imagine what next year's goin to be like, I'm so excited! We received the Toys R Us biggest book ever the other day, I showed it to Brayden and he's been in heaven ever since. He looks at it all the time showing Shawnn and I all the stuff he wants, I told him he'll need to show all of that stuff to Santa. At first he asked if I could tell Santa what he wanted, I said no you need to tell him. So it's been exciting watching him get excited about Christmas and Santa Claus.

~HaPpY HaLlOwEeN~

Hope everyone's having a good Halloween so far. Our's was pretty good until about 2, I got a call from Brayden's daycare this morning, he's been complaining of his left eye hurting, they just wanted to let me know. Then about 2 they called back Brayden's still complaining and crying so Shawnn went to pick him up and then I'm goin home at 3. I hope he doesn't end up sick today, I don't want him to miss out on trick or treating.

Depression

Most of my friends know that I've suffered from depression. This all started after I had Brayden, post partum depression. I tried not taking anything but eventually I had too. The Dr. prescribed me Lexapro which is a great medication for depression and anxiety (which I also had). When I first started taking it I had insurance, and for almost 2 years now I haven't had insurance so I've been paying $80 a month for a long time. My pharmacist told me last month to check with my Dr. about switching to Celexa, so yesterday I called the Dr. and he switched me to the genric of Celexa. So instead of paying $80 a month I'll only be paying $4 a month!!!! I'm so excited about that.

I'm also excited that I hadn't had my medicine since Saturday evening and I felt fine. Anyone who's been depressed or has had an anxiety attack knows that's great to 'feel fine'. My depression and anxiety wasn't severe like some peoples, but it was severe to me, if that makes sense. I feel good about talking about this topic, some people think being depressed means you're not happy with your life or you're crazy, which both can cause depression. Well I can safely say in my situation I was happy with my life, things just weren't right up stairs, no I'm not crazy and didn't want to end my life or anyone elses, I had a chemical imbalance and that caused me to be depressed and anxious. I personally think there are lots of people that need to be on medication but are to ashamed to take it b/c they're afraid of what people will think, I say this b/c I was one of those people. Now I don't care, the medicine made me better and that's the important thing. I have no problem telling people my story and how I feel compared to how I felt 2 1/2 years ago. Maybe this blog will change other peoples outlook and maybe it'll help someone!

~Jamie~

~My Husband is a Great Man~

This morning I dropped one of my expensive earrings down the bathroom sink. Last night I was laying in bed and for some weird reason I started thinking about how I haven't dropped an earring or a ring down the sink, it's one of my fears. Then guess what I did this morning. Shawnn was walking by the bathroom when it happened and I gasped, so he quickly opened the door and said WHAT DID YOU DO?!?! So I told him and he got down there and fished it out. I was so thankful he was able to get it out so fast. I've learned my lesson, never will I put my earrings on in the bathroom.

~Weekend~

Well, it's Monday again, I wish I didn't have to work on Mondays, but then I probably wouldn't like Tuesdays! Our weekend was great, Friday night we just hung out at home so we could do some laundry and get the house 'reorganized'. Saturday evening we took Brayden trick or treating in Van Buren, it was a good time for him, he didn't get much candy but thats ok. Uncle Eric made him a goodie bag so it more than made up for the candy he didn't get trick or treating. Hopefully he'll get lots of candy Wednesday. Yesterday we finished up laundry and I finally got all of our summer clothes packed up and stored. So I feel much more organized this week then I have in a while. It's amazing how good I feel when I have everything done and organized on Monday. Welp, here's to another fun filled work week. Oh and it's the last few days of the month, gettin closer to Thanksgiving and Christmas!! Hope everyone has a great Halloween and a great week.

~Jamie~

Fall has official arrived

WoW!! I can't believe the difference in the weather, this past weekend I was burning up in short sleeves and jeans, now I have a turtleneck and the heater on, crazy southern weather. Not complaining just stating!!

I have to share this story:
This morning we had to stop by the bank before going to daycare. Brayden loves to stop by the bank to see 'the girls' & get stickers so I always take him with me. Well so we're at the stop light that doesn't stay green but for a split second, and the people in front of me are not in any hurry obviously, so I say to them "for the love of god, will you please go!!!!!", Brayden says "mommy, don't talk that, you love people". He's so right, I don't need to be so hurried, I'm not always like that but I was a little cranky this morning. So after we left the bank I proceeded to tell Brayden that I was cranky, he says "you better not be cranky or you'll have to have a talk with daddy". Where that came from I have no idea but it was very funny. I just love my little sugar booger, he knows just when to say the right things.

Tonight we're craving our pumpkin nana brought us from Oklahoma!!!

This is the perfect quote......

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Some of our Troops are HOME!!!!

This is just wonderful!!!


This makes me feel so good, knowing so many mom's, dad's, daughters, son's, grandkids, grandparents, neices and nephews are finally back with their families. My friend Monica's husband Kelly, was one of those troops that got to come home today. Monica has patiently been waiting for this day for over a year. I remember having dinner with her back in January and us talking about him coming home in October. I told her it would be here before she knew it. Much easier for me to say seeing as how I wasn't in her shoes, but it's finally here!!! Now we just need to bring the rest of the troops home!!!!


~~Welcome Home~~

Park hoppin'

This weekend was a very relaxing weekend. Saturday Brayden & I went park hoppin', we went to Ben Geren (I took tons of pics but of course forgot my cord so I can't download them) played for a couple of hours, then went to Carol Ann Cross and played for another hour or so. Yesterday, we took Brayden bowling for the first time. We got to the bowling alley around 11 am, Brayden was soooo I mean sooooo excited. We walk up to the doors and guess what?? they were closed!!! They didn't open till 1 on Sunday. So that just broke his little heart, he didn't understand the concept of time and they weren't open. So to 'kill' time we went back to the park and had lunch at Brayden's favorite eating spot, McDonald's!!! Then we finally got to go back to the bowling alley, it was too cute!!! Again I have pics that I'll try key word try to post tomorrow.

Nana's headin to town this week!! We're so excited, she hasn't been here since before her school started back around the beginning of August. We're goin to go shopping this weekend, Brayden Cole needs some new clothes and a much needed haircut. Oh and some new shoes. Bless his heart he only has 1 pair of tennis shoes and a pair of biker boots (that are stinkin cute by the way) but the boy likes shoes he needs a variety. Ok so maybe he doesn't need a variety but he does like shoes and mommy needs a variety to put him in!! I swear if daycare didn't know any better they would think he's an orphan. His hair's shaggy lookin, he wears the same pair of shoes everyday so needless to say they're starting to look a little ragdy. I put him in a pair of jeans last week and yes they were a little shorter than last year but heck they weren't quite the high waters you see, Shawnn made me promise I would never put him in those again. So this weekend we're on the hunt for clothes for Brayden. Friday night we're goin to the Greenwood game. Teresa's son Zach plays for Greenwood and is awesome, PLUS, Howie's callin that game. I thought Brayden would enjoy watchin his Howie 'play' football.

Brayden's once again changed his mind about what he wants to be for Halloween...........a biker (he refers to it as a 'motorcycle man'), I was so excited because it's more original than power rangers, superman or batman. But I have a problem, where am I goin to find all the 'biker' stuff, like chaps & a jacket. I don't want to spend allot but I want him to be cute. So I don't know what he'll be!! Shawnn reminded me that he'll be whatever we buy, he (brayden) doesn't care. Which is true!!!

~~~Jamie~~~

~Contentment~

Last night I picked up a magazine to read and the first page I turned to was an article about CONTENTMENT, such a big thing for me. Something I've thinking allot about is the fact that people may not be what they seem to be. An example the magazine gave was this counselor was counseling a husband who wanted his wife to be more like so and so he gave a name of a woman in his church, come to find out that woman was an alcoholic and her family was going thru allot. I do wonder about this often, our people REALLY as happy and rich as they appear?? Just something to ponder. This article gave some 'exercises' to do to become content, it's a learned thing not something money can buy.

~Sick~

I was sickly this morning, noooooo I'm not pregnant for those of you who are wondering!!! I took some medication this morning and I think it just didn't settle well with me, apparently waffles wasn't enough food!! So I went home early for lunch hoping to feel better and I did. Shawnn had a couple of people over watching a dvd for this 'thing'( I call it a 'thing b/c I don't know the name) we're in these days. It was pretty embrassing when I take off running to the bathroom to 'take care' of business. So my hopes of feeling better after eating lunch worked. I was so glad for that I hate feeling crappy especially when I have to work!! I figured since I barfed up everything I had ate today I deserved some french fries, oh and were they yummy!!

Updates

I've lost a total of 8 lbs, so yay for that. The first week or two you usually lose 3 to 5 lbs. after that the norm is a about 2 lbs. I'm still walking in the mornings, and thinkin about walking another mile in the evenings, it takes me less than 30 mins. to walk a mile so I'm sure I can make time to do it in the evenings.

My next goal......to quit smoking. I could kick myself for starting back up. I had quit the whole time I was pregnant with Brayden and almost 2 years after he was born, then started back up. It's such a nasty habit, I don't want to be a smoker. Plus it's $4 a pack, there are way more things I would like to spend my money on then cigs. So today is my 2nd day of no smoking, I'll admit I'm a little more on edge but it'll be ok and will get better.

Shawnn will pay grandma his last payment in June actually should be June 4th 2008, of $100!!! I'm so excited. We still won't be buying a house next summer b/c of other things we want to pay off. I've mentioned this before so I'm not goin to bore people with it again, if you want to read about it's titled 'Goals'.

Nadine and I had our yard sale last weekend, we did pretty good on Friday but Saturday was an absolute joke, I made $10 on Saturday. But hey at least I got rid of some stuff and did make $68, that's $68 more than what I had Thursday!! Gotta look at from a 'half glass full' point of view.

I think that's about everything for now, sorry my blogs are a bit on the boring side. I've never been much of a writer, but I'm trying.

~Jamie~